friday. Friday. FRIDAY. FRIIIIIDAY.

it's friday and i have cried twice.

you know those days that just start off on the wrong foot and keep getting wronger? well that was today.

it all started innocently enough. last night i drove up to the shop as i was supposed to make a couple of deliveries for the now defunct wood company. well i got here and there was no heat. because the propane tank was empty. the one i just had filled in october and we have been here a total of maybe 10 times since then. fail. epic fail.

i found all the blankets i could. if you think i am joking i am not. i had two down comforters, a target blanket, a blanket my mom made, and a quilt. ALL the blankets.

i woke up this lovely friday morning and it was 48 degrees in the apartment. weeeeee freezing.

i tried to get everything done and i failed. failed miserably. and then i cried. ugly ugly girl cried. big ole crocodile tears.

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similar. maybe not quite so ugly.

darwin talked me off my ledge and he was right, at the end of the day it's not worth getting hurt if i can't get everything done. the wood company will still be here monday and i can reassess then to get everything accomplished. risking driving a truck and trailer when i am upset isn't a good idea and it isn't safe. so i cancelled today.

i cancelled an entire day.

i got everything prepped, that i could, for delivery next week.

i did some laundry.

i took apart this beautiful bookshelf so that i can put it at my house.

i am going to make quinoa fried rice for dinner. and hopefully it will look like this:

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i've watched Fast and Furious no less than 4 times in under 24 hours. and am currently going for a record in how many times i can watch it.

i also scored Oiselle distance shorts for $20 with shipping. #winning

all in all cancelling this friday hasn't been so terrible. once i got the tears subsided i calmed down considerably.

i can be really hard on myself and i then in turn set unrealistic expectations. i am slowly learning that is a terrible way to live my life (--->SLOW LEARNER<---). i am taking the rest of the day to find the calm and hopefully keep some of it.